Today marks the one year anniversary of my Big Reveal:
It has been a life changing year. I have moved to Los Angeles, a place where image is everything and truth is the exception, not the rule. It has been incredibly freeing, but also scary, to live as my true self and not hide of apologize for who I am or what I look like. None of this has been easy and I still struggle with this at times when my self doubt and insecurities run high.
I was open about this as a child and in highschool, but this has been the first year that I have been open about this as a burlesque figure. Burlesque is so rooted in image and glamour. Yes, it’s empowering but it can be hard to see and feel that sometimes when you’re backstage or perusing Instagram. Just like you, I can get lost in the portrayed perfection of another and I can get down on myself. I start to feel insecure and wonder if what I’m doing will be accepted. In the midst of those feelings, I still step out on stage, because in the end, I will always believe that beauty is truth. I have taught that to my students for over a decade, but I think it’s always harder for the teacher to teach themselves. Well, trust that I have been in class every day, showing up to learn new lessons and even learn the same lessons over and over. Repetition is key!
On the health note, I’ve had some hair growth and I’ve also had some loss. I feel like I’m only allowed a certain number of hairs on my head at one time. If one spot grows in, then I will lose hair some where else. It’s like whac-a-mole. While it is still frustrating and I still get down about it, I have more good days than bad, emotionally speaking. What’s strange is that my hair style is so on trend. I’ve NEVER been on trend or even cared about that. I see some ladies with the same cut as me and a lot of dudes! It’s kinda funny. Who knew alopecia would be so hot right now?!
Thank you for an incredible year of support and love! Can’t wait to see what this year brings!