I am very excited to be a part of this new docu-series called, SEX LIFE, on the Epix Network. The show chronicles the sex lives of all types of people and also features sexual performance artists. That’s where I come in! They featured my show, Le Nu, where I go beyond burlesque and really push the boundaries of what you might see in a typical burlesque show. You can catch the show when you sign up for a free 7 day trial. Watch my episode and all the rest in the series. The production team really did a great job of treating the subject matter with respect and artistry. Get your 7 day trial here!
I had an idea to do a tribute to Hedy Lamarr’s famous orgasm scene in the film Ecstasy. I wanted to experience real pleasure but just show my face in a soft focus glamour look in black and white. After the video was already filmed, I discovered Andy Warhol’s film ‘Blow Job’. It’s just a man’s face while he is experiencing pleasure. There is no sound and it is intense. I decided to combine these two inspirations in to what you see here.
Now, it is one thing to have an idea, and another to complete it, and another to present it. You know how it is when you hear your own voice in a recording? This is kind of like that, but more so. I assure you that these reactions are real and I am not faking it.
I hesitated about posting this because it’s very personal but I think the greater good it can do is important. A woman’s pleasure is important. We know this but it seems that the world is doing all they can to keep us in our place. They censor us, take away our autonomy and silence our voices. I will not stand for it and I encourage all women to stand up and fight. We have been shamed for centuries and in order to combat the forces against us, we must first attack the internal damage that has been done. The battle starts within. This is a video to remind you to take pleasure in your power.
I am so pleased with this new article that came out on Playboy.com about my class, Pussy Confidence! I developed this class a few years ago when it struck me that the burlesque I was seeing was not embracing sexuality. It made fun of it (which is technically burlesque) instead of owning it. It became clear to me that the performers I saw, mainly women, were not comfortable owning their power. To fully own your power, you need to fully embrace your vulnerability. Think of any super hero. It is always their vulnerability that gives them strength. They struggle with being different but it’s that moment where they accept their differences that the real story begins. I feel that it is the same for us, as performers, as women, as people.
I think this class is not only necessary for burlesque artists, but also for women in general. I will be bringing this class to the foreground and embracing my role as ‘Pussy Guru’!
Stay tuned for details on dates and locations. And as always, if you want to support my art, visit me on Patreon.
Today marks the one year anniversary of my Big Reveal:
It has been a life changing year. I have moved to Los Angeles, a place where image is everything and truth is the exception, not the rule. It has been incredibly freeing, but also scary, to live as my true self and not hide of apologize for who I am or what I look like. None of this has been easy and I still struggle with this at times when my self doubt and insecurities run high.
I was open about this as a child and in highschool, but this has been the first year that I have been open about this as a burlesque figure. Burlesque is so rooted in image and glamour. Yes, it’s empowering but it can be hard to see and feel that sometimes when you’re backstage or perusing Instagram. Just like you, I can get lost in the portrayed perfection of another and I can get down on myself. I start to feel insecure and wonder if what I’m doing will be accepted. In the midst of those feelings, I still step out on stage, because in the end, I will always believe that beauty is truth. I have taught that to my students for over a decade, but I think it’s always harder for the teacher to teach themselves. Well, trust that I have been in class every day, showing up to learn new lessons and even learn the same lessons over and over. Repetition is key!
On the health note, I’ve had some hair growth and I’ve also had some loss. I feel like I’m only allowed a certain number of hairs on my head at one time. If one spot grows in, then I will lose hair some where else. It’s like whac-a-mole. While it is still frustrating and I still get down about it, I have more good days than bad, emotionally speaking. What’s strange is that my hair style is so on trend. I’ve NEVER been on trend or even cared about that. I see some ladies with the same cut as me and a lot of dudes! It’s kinda funny. Who knew alopecia would be so hot right now?!
Thank you for an incredible year of support and love! Can’t wait to see what this year brings!