Truly Naked

Since my Big Reveal in January, I have been through a LOT of transition. I won’t get into the nitty gritty details, but it all culminates with me moving to Los Angeles. I have wanted to be out here for a long time, since high school actually. From not getting the encouragement that I needed at the time, to building up quite a business in Chicago, it didn’t make sense for me to leave, but there was always that pull. Things are still great in Chicago and I still work and produce there but I came out west to keep pushing myself. I’ve never done a move so big before, so there is a lot to get used to, but so far, I am loving it.

In addition to transitioning to a new city, I’m also transitioning to a new performance life. I have a new perspective on things and I’ve been performing more and more without my wig. I feel my best when I am able to be myself. I know wigs are just an accessory and you can still be yourself with them, but for me, they carry something different. They make me feel inauthentic. I know this feeling is due to my bad experience with them as a child (hair falling off during a rousing game of duck-duck-goose) but I can’t shake it, and I’m not sure I want to.

I’m enjoying this new freedom but it’s also hard to navigate in a city that is so image conscious. Sure, walking around as I am, people seem to dig the look, but then it’s time to perform. Things run through my head like, ‘will they accept me like this?’ ‘do I need to meet their expectations?’ ‘what about my expectations?’ ‘what about the producer’s expectations?’ and so on. It’s kind of a spiral of indecision and self doubt that starts to well up right before a show.

The thing is that I know I can sell the shit out of this look if I’m doing a hard edged act. It make sense. Where I start to panic, is in the selling of ‘glamour’. Can I wear feathers and sparkles and still be ‘burlesque’? What does it all mean?! (I have much more to say on these topics but I’ll get to those in another post.)

I want to share with you the first time I performed without a wig. This was at Lucha Va Voom in Los Angeles. It was also the premiere of a brand new act, so, ya know, no pressure!

Please enjoy ‘Leatherette’.

Well, that made me feel GOOD! That was back in February and now it’s August.  I just recently performed with Lucha again and this great article came out on Blurred Culture.

I think that you are ready to accept me. And Los Angeles seems ready to accept me. The only question is if I am ready to accept me. The answer is yes. I’m ready.

52 Days of Beauty

Every year at this time, I turn my focus to beauty. As you know, I believe that beauty is truth and we need more truth in this world! The world is crazy and can seem overwhelmingly negative. It is in this time that we should turn to beauty to inspire us. I want to encourage you to post something everyday that you find beautiful. It can be a painting, a sculpture, a piece of music, dance, video, anything! Use the hashtag #52daysofbeauty and #floodtheinternetwithbeauty and #churchofbeauty. I want to see what you find beautiful! Let’s use our voices to create positivity rather than trying to destroy the negative. Those things may have the same outcome but they are very different approaches. I hope that you will join me in the beauty crusade!

Learn more at https://thechurchofbeauty.com/

Eclipse: The Video

A few weeks ago, I released the video, Eclipse. It was a collaboration with Mischa Zupko, a classical composer. Working on this piece of film was a wonderful experience. It is me as you have never seen me before. It is not burlesque. It is me.

If you were not able to attend the release party, here is the video now for your enjoyment:

I have really been enjoying working with video elements. It really opens up a whole new world of expression! I’ve been having a lot of fun with my fan club. If you are not yet a member, check it out.

Here is a video I did specifically for the fan club but I decided it was too good to keep quiet! This is just the trailer. If you would like to see the whole thing, you can join the fan club for this and SO much more, or you can purchase this video as a single.  Bisous!

Happy Valentine’s Day!

p1010406Happy Valentine’s Day from my heart shaped bum to yours!

Tonight, February 14, is the last presentation of Le Nu at Untitled Supper Club. The shows thus far have been outstanding. I am SO proud of this show as it is so unique to burlesque and to Chicago.  Forget dinner and a movie! Do dinner and show with me and this delicious cast of characters.  Ticket options include dinner and the show or just the show. Whatever you choose, you will be left breathless! Tickets